The truth about me.
If you know me well enough – is that I am intense and edgy. I am both intense and edgy to the core.
Some say even ruthless in getting from Point A to Point B.
But this can be a problem.
I often get side tracked with being razor focused that I sometimes lose out on the bigger picture of life.
Simply because I thought this copy was smart 
Simply because I thought this copy was smart Simply because I thought this copy was smart
Its been 3 months since I ditched the suit and tie in corporate Kuala Lumpur for shirt and jeans startup environment.
Getting things moving has been a Herculean task.
Obstacles galore and managing a team – something quite new to me.
But despite the hectic demands an pace of things – its fun. I find that I really enjoy seeing people enjoying what they do – and doing a great job along the way.
There is satisfaction in seeing people doing things they themselves didn’t think they were capable of doing – and being proud that its their handiwork that has brought a project / venture so far.
But I digress.
I might be rocking it in my day job – but I find that I have slacked on my other priorities:
1. Beinrg fighting fit
2. Contibuting more to the community
3. Sharpening the saw in self improvement
4. Spending quality time (if anytime at all) with friends (yes, the Blackberry is a bad excuse)
The past weeks have been a jolt to get me to look at these in my life. Work is just an expression of life and isn’t the only thing. I was watching a self development video that underlines that we should ask ourselves these questions constantly:
Did I Live Fully and Vibrantly?
Did I Love Openly?
Did I Matter? Did I make a difference in at least one person’s life.
I have recently started to pick up dumbells once again. I hope to get back to Karate (this has been the 3rd time I promised myself that).
Looking to having a learning project in becoming an awesome kick ass copywriter and get paid for my work within the next 3 months.
I am off for a good start – I think things really fell into place after I left the Bank. Pleasant coincidences happen more regularly and I feel really grateful to be where I am working with the people I am working with.
“Are you sure this company is legit? I believe you have done your own homework to see if they are for real and if they do as they say and say as they do, go make it big out there!”
My boss was being the usual healthy sceptic when I told him about leaving the Bank.
This meant kissing my corporate retail banking bonus goodbye and swimming in a new pool that even I don’t know the depths and distance.
Which is crummy, considering I was just 2 weeks or so away from bonus announcement.
My 3 years in the Bank has been bittersweet. I will always remember the awesome workshops I got to attend as an International Graduate. We are like a Bank but unconventional. That’s the fun of it.
But the itch of trying something new (that usually bites after 1.5 – 2 years – I noticed) and living a life without boundaries was literally screaming at me.
So, I traded my 9-5 job (without the bonus I worked so hard for the past year) for a startup experience.
They don’t call it a startup for nothing
You literally start everything up. Sure, its scary but amazing at the same time.
For once, I don’t need to hear limitations – its as if there is no limits to what I can do and having that freedom is very liberating. Especially after working in a corporate environment for almost all my life.
Life is great when you are constantly creating, expanding, providing opportunities and growth.
The Theory of How Things Come Together
Its here that I feel that there is a funny mechanism at work. Even when I got shortlisted for the job and was in the process of deciding whether to make the leap – strange events conspired to just tell me what I was doing was the right thing.
There seems to be force at play that seems to bring things that vibrate alike together – will attract. We needed passionate people for the team – and despite some really crappy applicants – we pretty great people!
I am excited to see what happens after this and how we will proceed from here. Its a whole new horizon of possibilities happening.
Mornings seem much brighter now.
Its amazing how life paths intersect.
As I am coming back to the Path, I so happen to met another fellow traveller.
Amazaing to be able to talk about satori and have people who actually understand what you mean. It feels great that there are people who can relate to your other world-ly elements.
I feel less like a stranger in my own land – blazing the path less travelled.
The overall energy was great – so great that I didn’t even feel like sleep. Great vibes discussing about living and transformation. I think the energy exchange is mutual. For me, being able to meet a person who has met many guru’s during his lifetime and for me, a natural to refine by getting more “downloads”. I believe this is how sometimes the Universe speaks to me.
This was how I was taught – from life – and natural events – the people I meet – the experiances. Enriching and leaves a lasting effect in my psyche.
We talked about life, meditation and spiritual masters / mastery. Amusing stuff.
Few nuggets of wisdom was to re-remind me that I was on the right path – no matter how much my mind tells me I am insane, to live by instinct and listen to your feelings and operate less on thinking and on focusing on clearing old beliefs (which incidently is what I am currently doing – undoing, uncreating and destroying old thought patterns and constructs).
These constructs bring me to different points of my life where I have perceived something which hardwired my belief. Sometimes I feel I am transported to those brief periods of my life and I can see the untruth in it all.
Its a great highlight to meet other people on the same journey. The burdens don’t seem too heavy and the journey doesn’t seem so far.
After all – we are only here for the ride – the destination is pre-destined in the sands of time.
A funny thing happened the other day.
I always wanted to have myself sketched in my 20′s, 30′s and 40′s. To be used:
(A) In my orbituary – face it, its much cooler than a black and white photo, people will ACTUALLY pay attention.
(B) As a picture for a book cover photo – instead of a photo shoot, kinda shows I have character (literally) to have a character instead of an actual photo.
(C) To just satisfy my fascination of just have sketchings of myself adorn my mansion (ala the old rich) – think museums and how having a potrait sets historical figures apart.
So after work, I made my way to the streets of Bukit Bintang and looked for a sketch artist. We got to a short chat.
Interesting guy goes by the name of Dino. He used to work in a port before being a full time artist.
He was sharing with me how a job as a street artist enabled him to:
travel the world – people actually sponsored him to go to Macau and Las Vegas to do caricatures of people who win the casino and even the UK!
meet people of different backgrounds -he even went to the UK and did paintings of some army generals and some oddball characters
earn a decent amount of money – he charges RM50 per piece (that’s somewhere around USD16) for 45 minutes of work. A conservative 4 pieces a day would snag him about RM6000 -1.9K USD if he worked everyday (way more than what I am paid in my day job – LOL). He earns even more for overseas and museum pieces.
get some very interesting projects – he painted some of Malaysia’s mythical figures for the Melaka museum and National Museum. He apparently called the spirits to emerge for him to draw their features and got sick after that! Always wondered how did those artists know how historical figures look like.
Goes to show – money would come – you just got to live a little. Try out different things, do things you actually enjoy, and have fun doing it.
Which reminds me – its a good advice for me as well personally to live by.
The tarot card reader stared at the cards, took a gulp and stared back at me.
Hmmm...how should I cold read this one??
Probably ran out of cold readings to spin.
She did however tell me that I can choose to stay in my current job – which I feel is dead end or do something else.
The choice is mine. Or so it seems.
She did quickly add that I should look for something to do where I provide solutions to people. Where I bring harmony and order into lives and help people take control back over their lives. Sounds like being a cult leader. LOL.
I am always intrigued with the mystical – part of me really wants to believe them that life is indeed easy. Life is as we will them.
While the scientist in me is critical and sceptical about it all. Sometimes it just drives me up the wall ‘choosing sides’.
That’s the danger of the current information age – where everything is so easily available.
Where everyone claims to be an authority of something, when more often or not – they are just like you – trying to make ends meet. Trying to make a living.
Its a double edged sword.
Back in the past, only with sufficient contacts or authority can one be of an authoratative nature. Thus, we are not consistantly bombarded with new information. Heck, I think the appropriate word is rape. Being fed information right, left, and centre and having to piece togather – what makes sense / what doesn’t / what is applicable / what isn’t.
As much as there are cheats out there – I still believe there are the genuine articles amongst them. People who really care to make a difference in the lives of others.
Sincerity.
Such a rare trait. I hope to be able to find rare jewels amongst the dimes in the dozen.
According to the Hopi Indians, the world will undergo a great purification and the world will undergo a period of destruction and renewal to enter the new age.
"These bastards are going to die come 2012"
To quote the Hopi Indians:
“The world shall rock to and fro. The white man will battle against other people in other lands — with those who possessed the first light of wisdom. There will be many columns of smoke and fire such as White Feather has seen the white man make in the deserts not far from here. Only those which come will cause disease and a great dying.”
Unfortunately (or fortunately), the Hopi Indians have a proven track record of getting their predictions right.
They even predicted the world wide web for heaven’s sake! Again to quote the Hopi Indians:
“This is the Fifth Sign: The land shall be criss-crossed by a giant spider’s web.”
Of course, this is from what the History Channel feeds me.
Which information value I have begun to question – they should just stop pretending to be a “documentary channel” already!
But that is besides the point – the point I was initially trying to make was that my blog has died a few deaths already – some natural, some due to laziness.
I guess it is only apt to start a blog when the world is about to end to at least document the last few months of borrowed time that we have before the world ends – or not.
Many lifetimes ago, I used to be an avid blogger with LiveJournal – I practically LIVED on LJ! I started getting a life when I moved on to university.
Life got pretty much more complicated enough as it is than to share it with the world.
I tried writing a few times – only to drift off my initial intent of writing a blog.
So here I am – trying again – even when the world is supposedly going to end – I have not given up on you, my dear readers.
Then again, from the words of the Hopi Indians – only the white man will be affected – it might not affect yellow ones.
